O.k. this might seem like a no big deal thing to most of you but to me it is a very big deal.
You see I work on my laptop computer on and off every day-somedays all day long. I answer emails, do research,post pictures of the puppies process video clips of the puppies, work on my three website and basically it is the MAIN way I establish contact with my clients current, future,and past. Without it we would not have income, to keep a roof over our heads and make payments on cars,electric,water, and food etc.. you get the idea. This is especially true since my husband Lee is not working full time and w are minus that income as well, not to mention no medical insurance. Anyways… here is the story.
For the last four days, my laptop has been quickly sutting down. at first this was merly irritating as I was working on a picture or video and tryping to edit it to load up on the yorkie website. Then it began happeing more frequently, then yesterday it happened about every two hours and This time I could not get the cmputer to re-start easily. Finally at about eight oclock last night it would not re-start at all.
I was very upset as I again will say, this is my MAIN source of almost everything for my yorkie business. I was really upset because purchasing a new lap top is the last thing I need to undertake right now. I need to keep paying bills . I need to keep myself motivated and enthused about my doggies. I need to eat and feed my husband and doggies and puppies. I want to move closer to our daughter and son-in-law especially before grandchildren arrive. I so want to hold and cuddle them and to be there for them every time they want or need me. I want to sell this house and move closer to her without loosing our equity. I know this will make us happier and more at peace. We could have dinners with them and have them drop in. She loves the puppies and the doggies and this would make them happier too if she was closer. I want this move most of all. I have a hole in my heart I know this would seal up by moving closer to her. I also want to be able to treat my daughter, daughter-in-law and sister to the trip in October and then take a family vacations with all of them. I want my toes in warm sand while sitting on a tropical beach. I want to relax and laugh more. If we have to stay here, I want new landscaping, I really have wanted granite countertops in the kitchen (I’m a bit embarassed about the way they look now and find myself making apologies for them) I want to remodel out bathroom and I would love a hot tub again especially since Im missing a pool too. I want a vacation with my whole family, daughter and son-in-law and son and daughter – in law- or course I would love to own a vacation home in with a tropical view and a small pool. I want grandchildren and to pamper and spoil them. I want health insurance too.
So you get the idea I have a “NEEDS” and “WANTS” for this laptop to work. Now before you think ,maybe she needs a desk top so it will be more practical and reliable. I already have one that I can and do use, but the laptop allows me to be in the same space as the ogs and puppies. It allows me to interact with them and provide more nurturing. It also allows me to take it into the family room and work while I spend time with my husband of 29 years. (our 29th anniversary is May 16th). so when I work on it while he is watching sports on tv he is happy and trufully it provides me a short escape from the doggies and puppies.
Now Ill end with this. The computer is behaving again as long as I don’t have it sitting on my lap desk . I called the company and they felt it was over heating so If I use it on my lap then it should improve its performance and not shut off . This does not help my hot flashes though..
I am praying to the good Lord that he keeps me from having to work on my desk top and being away from the doggies and puppies.
I miss being closer to my daughter, I love being here near our son and daughter-in-law but they don’t need me and I need to feel needed, may daughter needs me and I can be there. Ouch, my heart and soul want to move there…. as soon as possible, without feeling any income loss. I don’t mind working and actually love most of it. I love the doggies and the puppies and the people I meet but I think I would succeed even more if we moved. I would be happier and so would Lee…
Sorry what started out as a laptop saga turned into a pity party for myself. My own mother passed away many years ago and I loved it when she and I lived close and she could spend time with my children. They thrived and I want to do that with my own future grandchildren if I can. I also miss being around my daughter, she makes me happy and to laugh. Just to be able to have lunch together wold be a blessing. My husband could even work with them and help ease their stress and ours too. So now I’ll try to not think about it and proceed ahead with my day.
Thanks for listening…. Puppies are wanting to play so Im off to make their little heart sing.